Chrissy Teigen reveals battle with postpartum depression: ‘Didn’t think it could happen to me'

Nothing is ever as it seems rings true for Chrissy Teigen. While the supermodel admittedly identifies as an “open book,” there is one secret that she has kept to herself...until now. In a powerful essay for Glamour magazine, the Lip Sync Battle host, who welcomed her first child — daughter Luna — with husband John Legend last April, revealed that she battles anxiety and postpartum depression. “I had everything I needed to be happy. And yet, for much of the last year, I felt unhappy,” Chrissy confessed. “What basically everyone around me—but me—knew up until December was this: I have postpartum depression. How can I feel this way when everything is so great? I’ve had a hard time coming to terms with that, and I hesitated to even talk about this, as everything becomes such a ‘thing.’”

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VER GALERÍA Chrissy revealed that she suffers from postpartum depression Photo: Miguel Reveriego

The mom-of-one returned to her popular Spike TV show, when Luna was just four-months old. Though Chrissy admitted there was “no better place to get back to work to,” she said, “I was different than before. Getting out of bed to get to set on time was painful. My lower back throbbed; my ­shoulders—even my wrists—hurt. I didn’t have an appetite. I would go two days without a bite of food, and you know how big of a deal food is for me. One thing that really got me was just how short I was with people.” The model noted, “I couldn’t figure out why I was so unhappy. I blamed it on being tired and possibly growing out of the role: ‘Maybe I’m just not a goofy person anymore. Maybe I’m just supposed to be a mom.’”

However before the holidays Chrissy got her diagnosis. After learning she had postpartum depression and anxiety, the 31-year-old said, “I remember being so exhausted but happy to know that we could finally get on the path of getting better. John had that same excitement. I started taking an antidepressant, which helped.”

VER GALERÍA Chrissy and John welcomed their daughter in April 2016 Photo: Instagram/@chrissyteigen

While Chrissy had previously associated postpartum depression with individuals “who didn’t like their babies or felt like they had to harm their children,” she admitted that she did not have “anything remotely close to those feelings.” She shared, “I looked at Luna every day, amazed by her. So I didn’t think I had it,” adding, “I also just didn’t think it could happen to me. I have a great life. I have all the help I could need: John, my mother (who lives with us), a nanny. But postpartum does not discriminate. I couldn’t control it. And that’s part of the reason it took me so long to speak up: I felt selfish, icky, and weird saying aloud that I’m struggling. Sometimes I still do.”

VER GALERÍA The model didn't think postpartum depression could happen to her Photo: Instagram/@johnlegend

The Sports Illustrated cover alum revealed that her musician husband has been “incredible” over the last nine months, bringing her medicine and indulging in reality TV with her. “He wants me to be happy, silly, and energetic again, but he’s not making me feel bad when I’m not in that place,” she said. “I love John and Luna more than I can imagine loving anything, and John and I still hope to give Luna a few siblings. Postpartum hasn’t changed that.”

Chrissy continued, “More than anything, I always want to have enough energy for Luna—to run up the stairs with her, to have tea parties with her. As she gets older, she’s becoming more and more fun. Her eyes are getting so wide, and I want to be there for those wide eyes. And I will be.”

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